Thursday, July 01, 2004
Rereading books, listening to certain songs and looking and performing certain task make feeling and memories flood back. While reading Ishmael and listening to life house "Try" I began to tear up. I listened to the lyrics and read through the pages. I remembered why I want to "Learn to Save the World". I want to disattach myself from all the things that keep us in a prison. I currently believe that anyone can make the difference. The only thing that you have to worry about is removing yourself from " Getting a Job making some money, working till you are 60 and then moving to Florida to die in warm weather. If you can find someome who can let you grown in ways that you do not understand then maybe you are at the half way point. I can call myself special because I think I found that person. However, I perverted the relationship by becomign too attached and being victim of being human. I Want to believe that fate made me do it or that chance and coincidence did it because we are always victims due to them. However, I can not. I currently search for the answer that will help me find the answer to the question why. If you can answer why then maybe you can help me. Before you claim you can just try the following. Walk to a mirrior and ask yourself why, why, why, why, why, attempt to be as honest as your lying self can and see what your answers are.

Here is another excercise for some to try. If you have recently lied to someone, any kind of lie. Admitt it to them, and tell them why you did it.

Diligent Clouds, provoke advertisment of human emotion.
Truth being is that we can not stand to hear the truth. We would rather be lied to.
You can never hope to save the world by the sword. Only by relinquishing the sword do you stand to understand how to save the world.
The world is moving away from us, the world is drawing itself away from us. We are drawing ourselves from the world.
I fell in love with the idea of saving the world. I fell in love with the person who I thought I would never fall for. I fell flat on my face for both. I would like to understand what that means but I cant.


Prisons

Prisons are built to keep things in them
walls of cement and bars of steel hold
Steal the soul of those inside and remove their
humanity inside strives to break free
For the people by the people of the people.
Servants wish to steal our freedom and
manipulate they shall not They are building a
Prison of fear and ignorance. They will
Lie that we are safe in this building from the
world is our enemy they curse the name of
America lies and perversions of the truth like
Chattel we stand by and await to here more from
Propaganda ministries the news on TV and Newspaper
Disenters are weak on national Security and Unpatriotic
Freedom is close again, we must release ourselves first
Freedom oh freedom these cursed chains hold us here.
Chains of fear and ignorance and poverty.