Meh.....

I am so lost that I do not believe that I can ever find myself. The truth of the matter is that I am lost and that I have no idea why I can not be honest with myself. I am desperately searching for a truth that is half hidden and always out of reach. There is no way to figure it out. I do not want to know what I need to be part of the society that nurtures ignorance for the few minutes of its sputtering existance.

There is no clue to how to live one's life. There is no way to find the clue to live ones life. People lose themselves in mundane-meaningless world that has no value besides that which was forced upon us by the indoctrination of the scoiety in which we live. The things that we do we do not for our perserverence we act out in the name of greed and lust. I do not know if there are many who can see the picture in the spectrum of disgust that I feel.

I am feeling so lost, and without hope. I said before that hope is a perversion that is used by the mind to corrupt the reality of a moment to come or a moment that has passed. There is no way to fix things now. The world is slowly cracking. The faults have been forming for quite a long time, the faults have been forming on what it is meant to be human. People do not care about others anymore. We are always scared but are always lulled by the opiates of out society. Liquor, coffee, tobacco, food, we are force fed these to make us docile. The opiates that keep us from achieving greatness.